They gave me a title...

Once a week, you will hear from someone on our Protege team. There are eight people in the Protege program this year, all of whom are involved in a different part of our church. Hopefully, hearing from them will give you some idea of how our residency program is helping serve Christ Community.

Here is our first post from Justin Kimmel:

After one year of being in Protege, there are countless stories I have come away with. Stories of failure and triumph. Stories of risk, rejection and reward. Stories of indecision and ignorance. And stories of grace and freedom. But those can be saved for a campfire, car ride or carousel. I want to talk about what I do now. There is so much God is doing now in the life of our church and in my own. I’d rather talk about that.

They gave me a title. I am no longer “Worship Intern”. No longer “Aaron’s guy”. No longer “One of Adair’s guys.” I’ve been referred to as all of those and I was totally fine with them. But they went and gave me a title. An official name. Something I can consistently answer the question “So what do you do?” with and feel a sense of pride about the work I do. They call me the Director of Programming or the Programming Director, whichever you prefer. 

I’ll be honest, the new title and the added responsibilities that came with it made me feel like I passed. I did well enough on the exam to move on. I don’t have to take 8th grade all over again like my friend Bo did in 2002. I graduated.

What I do as Programming Director involves anything you see or hear going on during our Gathering from before the Gathering Song to after the Benediction. It’s my job to lead our teams and leaders helping people feel like family and serve them well on Sundays. I schedule the band members. I choose the songs. If it comes on the screen, I’m responsible. If it comes from our speakers, I’m responsible. If there’s wine in the juice glasses and juice in the wine glasses, oops… my bad. If the temperature is too hot or too cold (you’re welcome, remember the summer?), it’s on me. If you can’t hear a lead voice or the drums are too loud, it’s on me. I don’t necessarily DO every thing every week, but it’s my job to communicate well enough so we are prepared enough to serve you well.

With the move downtown and the new building, I’ve put added pressure on myself. After our first two weeks, I took that a little too far. Yes, it’s ok to feel the weight of everything and the responsibility for things to get done. But I took control. Instead of relating to God for who He is and what He’s done and responding to that by preparing well and working hard, I related to Him by my performance, thinking if I don’t get everything done perfectly, I lose and on come the consequences and emails. With every tiny detail that wasn’t “ideal or perfect,” I felt it as failure. And then there were things I couldn’t change the day of and I worried about them all service.

But as He never fails to do, God showed up last Sunday and graciously reminded me that I am not the gatherer. I am never the ultimate worship leader. Jesus is in control, even of the little things. After all, it’s His day. It’s about Him. He is the ultimate gatherer. He is the ultimate worship leader. I saw Him on Sunday. I saw Him come through for me and for us. It was so fitting that the final song of the service was “All I Have is Christ” and the benediction reminded us that He’s out for our good and nothing can separate us from His love. Because of Him, we can’t lose. Because of Him, we win. All we have is Christ. #thankful #winning

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